I’m going to be totally honest with you, I literally JUST wrote this blog post. Usually, I have my Monday post ready to go Friday or Sunday at the latest but I was not feeling it this weekend. It wasn’t like I was super busy either, I just didn’t know what to write and didn’t want to force out a blog post JUST to have a blog post.
So, while I was walking to Walmart this morning to grab a few things, I pondered if I had anything to write. No inspiration struck. I hate when that happens because then I fall into this weird depressing hole of, “Am I even a worthy blogger/Does nothing interesting happen in my life/Why can’t I be creative all the time?”
It’s not fun, trust me. Lately, I’ve been feeling those nagging thoughts more because I have NO motivation to do ANYTHING. Like, even the simplest of tasks make me sigh. Putting on real clothes? Ugh. Opening the fridge to even see if there is something I want to eat? More ugh. Actually cooking a meal or coming up with a new recipe for the blog? Don’t even go there.
While these feelings are uncomfortable, I’m realizing it’s ok to sit with them. To feel uncomfortable or unproductive or less than creative. It doesn’t mean I won’t be in the future or that the feelings will last forever. It’s just where I am at the moment and I will move on eventually.
I think so many times we don’t want to feel the feelings we have because we aren’t supposed to feel that way. We’re supposed to be happy and awesome and creative and amazing all the time. There is no time for any other emotion that is less than positive. It doesn’t make a pretty Instagram picture or a thoughtful blog post or a witty Twitter update. But we do ourselves a real disservice when we gloss over the not so happy stuff like feeling unmotivated. We don’t get a chance to learn and grow from those feelings. We don’t get to ask ourselves what brought us to this point or if there are changes we can make. We don’t get to deal with the other issues that perhaps caused those feelings in the first place.
So what am I really trying to say? Feel your feelings. Sit with them for a bit. Question them. Learn from them. And when you’re ready, move on. Oh and if you’re wondering about the title of this post? All of those things happened this weekend when I was not coming up with some great blog post. Don’t worry, my face is alright but we may have had to make a quick stop at Visionworks to get Adam’s glasses checked…. 🙂