Being Brave And Making The Change

I have been mulling this post over in my head for awhile now.  I guess it’s been at the back of my thoughts for at least a few months, but I kept pushing it away.  I didn’t want to deal with it and ignoring things always makes them go away, right?

If only it did.Being Brave And Making The Change | Life Healthfully Lived

So last week when I wrote about my theme for 2016, I knew that I would finally have to deal with this issue.  If I really want to grow and mature I have to actually grow and mature.  Profound thoughts guys, I know.  But for me, it was kind of profound.

I’m not dying, in fact, no one is dying.  No one is sick, nothing is horribly or awfully wrong.  So don’t worry about that.  But there is a big change coming for me and I’m a little nervous.  I’m putting on my big girl panties and telling myself, “What’s the worst that could happen?”

I’m taking a break from running.

All of you reading this are probably cursing me because who cares if I’m taking a break from running?  It doesn’t affect the vast majority of people and this isn’t a life-altering announcement.  Except that it is.  For me.Being Brave And Making The Change | Life Healthfully Lived

You have heard me rave about running and how it has given me so much.  I am proud to call myself a runner and join the ranks of thousands who log their miles with their feet.  I have talked about finally running a marathon, I love watching races, and I love getting outside and hitting the trail.

Until a few months ago that is.  Lately, I have been struggling with my running.  Instead of waking up excited to head out for my run, I’m dreading it.  I find myself dawdling longer and longer before finally motivating myself to get out the door.  At first, I thought it was just a down week.  All runners have them.  Those days or weeks where it’s just a little tougher to get out the door than usual.  I thought it would pass, I would get back to my usual enthusiasm soon enough.  But that enthusiasm hasn’t returned.Being Brave And Making The Change | Life Healthfully Lived

My immediate reaction was to just push through.  I’m a runner.  This is what I do.  This is what I have done for the past eight years.  This is how it is.  I was just going to keep running and ignore that little voice in the back of my mind that was telling me something just isn’t quite right.  And then Adam got a cold right before the new year.

He took a week off from running because he is much better at resting when he knows he needs it most.  And because he likes to take any excuse to not run :).  I still kept up with my normal running schedule, but I started to sleep in a little with him and go on my run later in the morning.  Then I started to get the sniffles on my rest day and when I woke up on Monday, I did not feel like running.  Even more than I had in the past few months.  So I did something that I rarely if ever do: I decided not to run.

It was a little tough at first and I found a different workout to do inside just so I had some movement.  But it wasn’t horrible and I found myself feeling ok about my decision.  As it stands right now, I haven’t run in over a week.  That’s the longest I’ve gone since I hurt my knee a few years ago.   And I’m going to keep not running for the foreseeable future.

Am I giving up running completely?  No.  I am eternally grateful for everything that running has given me.  It totally changed me inside and out and that is truly amazing.  It’s because of that that I’m taking this hiatus.  I don’t want to keep running until I totally hate it and I give it up for good.  I want to find that feeling that I used to have and in order to do that I have to let go.Being Brave And Making The Change | Life Healthfully Lived

I’m also not giving up exercise altogether.  This decision is opening doors for me to explore other areas of fitness that I had previously neglected.  I’ve been doing Fitness Blender’s 5-Day Fit Challenge and I have been excited for every new day.  I’ve missed that excitement when it comes to working out.

So what can you take away from this really long winded post?  Just because something scares you or you’ve been doing something for years doesn’t mean you can’t change.  You are not a tree.  If you don’t like something get up and move.  Switch directions.  Try a new approach.  I have no idea what my relationship with running will look like in the coming months but it will always be there, waiting for me.

Besides, what’s the worst that could happen?

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The best is yet to come…

Run The Mile You’re In

1 mile down, 6 to go. 

Only 45 minutes left.  40…35…30…

TheRun The Mile You're In | Life Healthfully Lived minute I cross the street and go from walking to running, I am counting down.  I love running, I really do, but there is a struggle between my mind and my body.  Some days my mind is fully prepared to run, it urges my tired and leaden legs forward.  Other days my legs are ready to go 100 miles, but my mind wants nothing to do with the pavement beneath my feet.

There are good running days and there are bad running days.  The bad running days are brutal and each step, each labored breath, each drop of sweat pleads for me to stop.  On those days I am only looking forward to the second that my run is over and I can move onto better things, easier tasks, and just take a shower and wash the bad run juju off my body.

But then I think of a quote from Scott Jurek’s book, Eat And Run: My Unlikely Journey to Ultramarathon Greatness.

Run the mile you are in. 

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It’s so simple yet so powerful.  Run the mile you are in.  Be there.  Be totally present for THAT mile, right now.  Notice the air on your face, the sites around you.  Take inventory of your body and see where you are in that moment.  Don’t think about the tough hill in that next mile, stop longing for the finish line, and run the mile you are in.

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Take this mantra and apply it to all areas of your life.  Having a hard time eating better and incorporating more healthy food?  Run the mile you are in.  Don’t think of all the things you have to give up, focus on what you can do today to make a better choice.  In the middle of a tough project at work?  Run the mile you are in.  Stop thinking about what will happen if you don’t meet the deadline, accomplish one task at a time until you reach the end.  Finding your life in a rough patch?  Run the mile you are in.  While the suffering might hurt, learn as much as you can from this experience so you can grow as a person and help others with similar problems.

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My tough run is making me a stronger person.  I need to be there for every single mile of that tough run to get the full effect of it’s lessons.  I need to be present for all moments of my life instead of wishing and waiting for better things.  Often the better things are passing us by in those moments we are wishing were over sooner.

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I’m running my 7th mile and it wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t run the other 6.